Truth #1: Uninspiring work leaves me empty and frustrated.
Friday afternoon at 4pm I had a visit from Grumpy that didn’t seem to go away. The root of Grumpy’s visit was the fact that Monday was only two days away, which meant Anxiety was en route Sunday night. With Grumpy in the house, expecting Anxiety to be dropping in in only two sleeps – Frustration Friday was at an all time high!
This isn’t Grumpy, Anxiety or Frustration’s first time visiting. They’ve come around on two other very distinct occasions, both involving my work in less-than-inspiring places. Absolutely no fault of the “big man” I work for; but rather three strikes on my lack of self-motivation to execute of my innovative entrepreneurial dreams…and that sucks.
Truth #2: Compromise kills.
Instead of creating time for my endorphin kicks (as I have been very diligently!), I decided that I’d say “yes” to try to please others…which resulted in missed workouts and two days of totally shotty sugar indulgences. In the big scheme of things, surely this will be water under the bridge. However, I committed to a plan and fell short. I said yes when i should have said no. I missed the runner’s high… and that sucks.
Truth #3: Authenticity ROCKS!
Danielle LaPorte rocked my world Saturday morning! She delivered a dose of WhiteHotTruth, as she does so well, on the power of authenticity. I was flying high – so high – a place where she has taken me before…to the land of Inspiration, Possibilities and Empowerment. I relished in those feelings; wrote lists of what to do next and how to feel along the way; served out some gratitude for the journey to bliss which I know is around the corner. But then Anxiety knocked on the door, it is Sunday night after all…and that sucks.
The clock said 16:30. I was lying in bed, sobbing, feeling so frustrated with myself, hoping to drift away and wake up anew. It wasn’t going to happen. And exactly in this moment, I now understand that a life boat is not going to save me and no one is going to create my entrepreneurial dreams for me (they are mine, after all!).
What I do know for sure if that while Anxiety, Grumpy and Frustrated are over visiting…Passion can drive, Courage can navigate and Love will find a way to make it happen.
Three strikes and you’re out, Girlfriend. Perhaps the beauty in rock bottom is there is only one way to go – UP – I’m on my way to land of bliss!
YES to only way out being UP!! Sometimes you have to hit rock to bounce back and see the sun.
Watch this: http://tinyurl.com/d78qjk. Minus the fact that it’s an ad for Australia, “sometimes we have to get lost ot find ourselves”.
amen to that post. Loved it.
Thank you both for taking time to leave a comment. Appreciate it!
Paulina – very kind of you to leave such brilliance for me to watch…i will have to blog about it:)
I’m a friend of Mary’s and have been checking your blog out for a while. It’s so inspiring! I think I’m a pretty positive person in general, but you rock! It’s honestly kind of reassuring to hear that even you have some doubts. However, no one with an attitude like your could possibly be kept down for long!